Ladybugs and a Miracle

Hi there!! I have something amazing to share today, but first let’s talk about my ladybug theme going on from this weekend! 🐞

I was perusing World Market a few nights ago and came across this lone journal sitting off by itself on a shelf. Ladybugs are a favorite of mine, so I couldn’t leave without it! I love journaling, so it won’t collect dust either.

Guys, you have no idea how happy this made me that my hair clips matched my journal…lol.

Now to share a story that is still hard for me to believe actually happened. It’s too mind-blowing not to blog about it! This happened just a few days ago…

So, I go to Starbucks a LOT. It’s like my home away from home and I’ve met so many people over the years from going to Starbucks! πŸ˜ƒ Maybe less than a year ago, a man told me in passing, as I was drinking my coffee, “Hey! Just wanted to say I love your look, it’s so cool and unique.” I said thank you, with a smile.

A few months later, I run into him again and we exchanged hello’s and small talked. We discussed art for a bit, and added each other on social media.

We’ve been social media friends for a few months and we both noticed we share the same interest in music, too. I ran into him again at Starbucks on Saturday, and we chatted much longer than ever before.

I don’t know what it was you guys, but in the middle of talking to him, something clicked in my mind. I had this strange feeling that was telling me, There’s something familiar about this man…

I tossed the thought aside and kept the conversation going for the time being. We exchanged a hug before he left and I continued on with my day.

That evening, I returned home. I suddenly remembered how I felt talking to him earlier – what was that feeling I had? Why was there something about his facial features that seemed so…familiar?

Right then, something told me to go look at my mom’s tiny, old photo album she keeps on a shelf. Something in that photo album was calling to me in that moment, and it was reminding me of this man. I flipped it open and went directly to a specific photograph. It’s the only photo I have of my dad (long story short, I never knew him or anyone on his side of the family). The picture is of my dad, his brother and sister, taken in 1989.

My eyes zeroed in on his brother in the photo. That was it – he looked very similar to the man I’d been chatting with at Starbucks!!!!! I quickly got on social media and compared the photo to see the similarities side-by-side.

I asked my mom and sister, “What’s my father’s brother’s name?” I didn’t know and I never had a reason to ask about it until now. They answered, and my legs literally went weak when they said his first and last name – an exact match of the man’s name from Starbucks.

I had my answer, but I had to confirm it all. My heart pounding and my hands shaking, I sent him a message and explained that what I was about to ask may sound very strange, but I had to know. I asked him, “I’m sorry, but is this you in this photo, taken in 1989?”

I sent him a photo of the photo and, being completely in shock, he said that yes it was him and wondered how on earth I had the photo in my possession. I explained that it’s the only photo I have of my dad, who’s the other man in the picture. The conversation then went to the realization that he and I…are related. He’s my uncle and I’m his niece.

It was like being struck by an emotional bolt of lightning. I rarely ever cry, but oh boy did I break into tears. The man from Starbucks who I’d been chatting with about music and art this whole time, IS MY DAD’S BROTHER! And neither of us knew, until I somehow put the pieces together from a 30 year old photograph!

I feel happy and grateful that this happened! On the flip-side, after the dust has now settled, I feel a mysterious sadness that I can’t even begin to describe. I think it’s because I never knew my dad and suddenly I realized I’ve been friends with his brother without knowing. It’s a flood of emotions. I’ve been in an introspective haze and have just needed time to process everything.

Well, I hope you all enjoyed reading. It was long and not my usual content but, it was too surreal of an occurrence not to share with whoever follows my little corner of the internet. ❀️

See you next time!!

Blossom

Hi y’aaaalll…

Happy Spring!!! 🌸 Where I live, it decided to be a little chilly and rainy on the first day of spring. Hmph! πŸ™„

Having said that, we’ve had some really good days in the 70’s! More of that to come, so yay. Warm weather makes me happier!

I thought I was going to wear all pastels for the spring kickoff, but I opted for a white ensemble with little red accents instead. Channeling a blossom, perhaps? Blossoms are my spring favorite, so it works!

Why is my twin taller than me?

I wore a thin lace scarf with it and I really like it. ❀️

Well, happy freaking spring to you all!! Are you happy about the season change? Sad because you have allergies? Indifferent? Missing another season? Personally I’m quite thrilled because spring is my favorite season! Min favorit Γ₯rstid, to even say it in Swedish.

My door knows best: Live life in full bloom. 🌸

I walked through farmer’s market Tuesday night – the first to launch the season! I got myself some Teazer’s Tiger Spiced Chai (sat there for awhile on my laptop, read and then people watched), then hung out with my friend at her booth at the market. I ended up with a vegan waffle by the time I left (I’m a pescetarian, but I’m getting into vegan foods…)

What about you guys? Are there certain things you find yourself doing when spring arrives? I’m outside much more and I like going for walks, and also go to the local farmer’s market. πŸ’

See you next time!!

Pot of Gold

Happy Saint Patrick’s Day!!! β˜˜πŸ€

I hope your day is merry and green. πŸ’š Today I bring you a festive outfit and some artwork I finished very late last night!

Dress from Forever21 (tailored) and shamrock clips from Claire’s

As you can see, I successfully made everything green today. πŸ˜‰ It’s a lovely Sunday to be outdoors and enjoy some coffee and a macaron for lunch. πŸ’šβ˜˜

So, I had the most electric jolt of creativity last night. Was it my strawberry banana bee pollen smoothie and bowl of fruit I had for dinner at Lassen’s?! Not sure. I came home around eight p.m., pulled out my sketchbook, put on The Beginning is the End is the Beginning live by the Smashing Pumpkins, and away into the creative stratosphere I went.

[You guys are probably tired of me referencing this concert yet again!! What can I say though, if I find something that inspires me, my head and heart can’t help going back].

The aesthetic they chose for this song at their concert appeals to me for a lot of reasons; the main two are 1) the nod to the 1920’s/1930’s showgirl and 2) the song itself paired with the visuals together is beautifully creepy and unsettling. The girls go from camera ready smiles to death glares looking right at you, interchangeably throughout.

It was one of my favorites from their setlist, and so I came up with my own artwork inspired by it (I finished this around 1 a.m. last night!!)

I titled it Life is a Film and We’re the Stars. 🌟

Because life in a way, is just like a film. The highlights and memories we recall are the film reels we replay in our mind. If we recall dark moments, we can choose to replace them with a positive attitude, which are the gleaming, camera-ready smiles that somehow become surreal, the longer you stare at them.

And there are two of them, because life is a constant duality. Positive and negative. Light and dark. Smiles and death glares. Beginning and end.

I’m really, really happy with how this turned out!!!

‘Til next time! πŸ˜€

“Mysterious Woman in Pink”

Heeey!!!

Recently I was invited to be on a podcast over at That Saige Advice, and it was a brand new experience for me!

I met the very sweet and hilarious Saige at my last art show, and she was in search of local female artists to be on her upcoming episodes. I was honored that she asked me to be a guest!

She asks her guests to create a drawing for her podcast, so I made an illustration of her:

I was given the episode title of “Mysterious woman in pink”, and I love it. If you’re interested in hearing my mouse voice that sounds like I could’ve been one of the mice in Cinderella, then there you go!

I was actually really nervous about the podcast. Honestly, I’m not used to talking for long periods of time, so I was pretty amazed that I managed to. I have no problem being around people or anything; in fact, I love to observe and people watch! However, keeping conversations going is a struggle for me.

I’m usually the listener in a conversation. I grew up in a house full of women, so it was always talk-talk-talk (no offense, mom and sis) and I gradually became the listener of the group.

It’s funny because I can write a lot. But actual talking, I’m not so good at and in real life I’m pretty quiet. Now let’s talk about this outfit…

Two thumbs up for my creepy gaze!

This is one of those outfits that I kind of threw together and was like hey, this works!

Do you ever just not know what to wear, so you put random things together to create something entirely new? That’s what this fashion experiment was. πŸ˜€

On a last note, here in central California, spring is definitely showing us its pretty face! Daylight Saving Time started last Sunday, and I’m blissful. That extra sun in the evening is the most delightful treat after a day at work. πŸ’œ

‘Til next time!!

Like a Ghost

Hello, hello! 🌸

I wore an all white outfit recently; I loved it because it made me feel like a ghostly figure drifting among the living. πŸ’œ

Typically, I don’t wear a lot of white. I think my inspiration came from watching Anna Biller’s 2016 film The Love Witch (finally!) and the 60’s aesthetic was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen in a film.

Film stills courtesy of The Love Witch (2016)

There were a couple of beautiful white dresses in the film, so I’m sure subconsciously that had me reaching for a white ensemble in my closet!


White looks lovely on everyone. See ya next time!! πŸ’œ

Knee Socks

Doesn’t it look like I’m about to play baseball or something? I think the ensemble reminds me of A League of Their Own, where the baseball-playing gals wear a pink dress uniform with knee-high socks.

BUT JUST KIDDING. One thing you will never see me do is play a sport of any kind (I did shoot guns in Naval ROTC, though!!! My best memory is shooting an M1 Garand and getting a big fat bruise on my shoulder. I still don’t know how the men in WWII managed to haul them around in battle).

Sports, like math, is definitely put under the section of My Weaknesses. I tried a musical route by playing handbells in high school and I was literally the ONE person in the class who played off key (I still don’t understand how to successfully play a handbell??????), and the teacher gave me the evil eye until I decided to just drop the class. Muahaha…

I mainly liked the class because we got to wear white gloves…

“Away in the Clouds”

Ah, but then I met ART. Art was the one place where I felt everything I did was right. The beauty of art is that it’s subjective. A flaw perceived by one person is perfection to another.

There’s no wrong or right way to do art. It simply is. In a fast-paced world that demands perfection, art is paradise.

I had a most excellent three day weekend (I took Monday off to enjoy the nice day and work on a new illustration, featured above). The idea I had behind it is, ultimately, being a wallflower with her head in the clouds.

Because you know what? There’s no shame in being a wallflower with her head in the clouds! πŸ’œ

Apart from creating new art, sipping coffee at a coffee shop and going to Barnes and Noble, I also watched a movie Sunday night that I hadn’t seen in a looooooong time…

Jackass the Movie, 2002

This is really random trivia about me, but I’m a huge Jackass fan. I know it can be really gross, but oh my gosh is it also hilarious!!! I remember seeing Jackass 3 in 3D years back in the theater…oh my, LOL.

It’s one of those movies you’re unable to take your eyes off the screen. Is he really going to ride his bicycle into a pile of cacti? Is he really going to jump off a trampoline and into a ceiling fan, that’s on? Oh wow…he just did…

Sometimes all a gal needs is to create some art and watch Jackass to fully recharge herself. πŸ˜‰

See ya again soon!!

And it was All Yellow

πŸŒŸπŸ’› It’s truuuuuue…

Look how they shine for yooooooou… πŸ’›πŸŒŸ

I can’t help but immediately get the song “Yellow” by Coldplay stuck in my head anytime I wear the color! I do admit that I took it to the next level with this outfit, because it literally is all yellow.

I’m really happy with the outcome (I pieced together a button up blouse from Amazon with a thrift find dress). It really does look like a whole dress, doesn’t it?!?!!?!?! Success! I feel like this is my most 1960’s-looking outfit.

My expressions make me laugh. KIND OF.
Hello Kitty rings I made to match… πŸ˜ƒ GOAL THIS YEAR: GO TO THE HELLO KITTY CAFΓ‰ IN SAN JOSE (wearing cat ears, naturally).

I really love this shade of yellow. It’s like a sunshine yellow, and I felt like a walking ray of sunshine wearing this outfit. WISDOM GAINED? Be your own sun. πŸ’›

See ya!!